Im stuggleing find myself out of this complication, as I try to filter through my feelings I find myself feeling more. What could it be tht has my mind spining this way? Is it the fact tht its been so long since Ive felt this kind of touch? Or is it the fact tht before we started I already liked you so much? I dont know what it is but everything you do from the way you walk to the way you move. Drives me to scream silence…
Every moment we share and every touch we exchange, seems to file in my memory bank and when your far away I play those moments over and over again in my head. Its almost as if you put a spell on me. No matter how hard it try to deny these feelings, no matter how much I tell myself its nothing, the moment your presence finds my presence my heart feels something. As you tap at my center of emotions, knock on my minds door, I try to lock myself inside but it seems as though you break a window. How can I release myself from this feeling when I hold myself back with the emotion of denial. I scream silence….
Crying out for freedom, so tht I can no longer be tormented with these thoughts. Thoughts of you and me doing things well never do together, saying things well never say to each other. Feeling what Im feeling but unable to profess a crush tht only to “I” could mean so much. Cause though I may adore you and though I may feel for you, the mutualaity can and never will be split equal. SO here I stand…pretending, fronting, like this aint ntohing, when deep inside I know tht every day, every moment I have to myself, I scream silence…
